A Broken Heart

I recently experienced something devastating and I’m the process of accepting and healing. When I feel, I write. And I am in my feels right now and will be for a while. So I wrote a poem. A poem expressing my pain, my confusion and also hope to feel okay again and with time to heal. I’m sure once you’ll read, you’ll understand. For those of you experiencing something similar, just know I am here for you. A support system during heartbreaking experiences like this needs people to hold you through it. And to allow you to just feel. So here I am, just feeling and sharing my story.

Although unknown but here I am

Facing the reality that I didn’t plan

My heart completely torn into pieces

Angry, sad and confusing feelings

How do I cope and survive this pain

The deepest part of my soul gone away

To be brave for myself but hiding in tears

A question that can’t be answered

My anxiety, my fears

I want to be okay

But I feel so numb

Embracing the inevitable

What can’t be undone

The silence is still

My tears make the noise

My heart completely broken

I swear it was going to be a boy

With time I’ll heal

But I’ll never forget

The joy I experienced

The dreams I dreamt

I’ll never understand why now, why you

Being forced to let go, what I wanted to be true

The devastation, the despair

I’m yearning for repair

The grief I’m feeling

Of this unexpected broken heart

Walking an unknown path

Accepting this painful part

A very brief time but wanted more

I trust my fate, ready to close this door.

This is not goodbye

An experience filled with gratitude

A part of me you’ll always be

On my heart, permanently tattooed